Sometimes ya got to take a Pause.....

You may wonder.... what does that even mean? How could you ever find beauty in the pain? Why would you name a Blog that? 

I can tell you from personal experience that when in the middle of what may or may not be the worst pain of your life, the last thing you ever want to be trying to tell yourself is to find the beauty in it. 
Many of you have had a chance to read my Facebook post about last week (for those of you who haven't you can find it here). Last week was by far the worst and best week of my entire life. When the pain started at the beginning of the week, it was like no other pain I have ever felt before. I have had migraines before, I have had tension headaches before, but this was something totally different. It was so different that I couldn't even explain it. People kept asking me, what kind of pain is it? what does it feel like? And I couldn't explain it. The only thing I could say, was "it hurts really bad, like really really bad." During this extremely low time that I had, you could not have paid me to try to see the beauty in it. I was totally focused on the pain. Because of the pain, and the fact that I felt like no one would help me, this pain became more than just physical. It became something that consumed me, mentally, physically and emotionally. I was totally shut down due to this pain. I developed this intense depression that hit my system hard because of this pain. If someone would have said "find beauty in the pain" .... I probably would have laughed in their face.

But then I remembered this one particular song, 

Beauty From Pain--- by Superchick 

My whole world is the pain inside me

The best I can do is just get through the day

When life before is only a memory

I wonder why God lets me walk through this place. 

And though I can't understand why this happened 

I know that I will when I look back someday

And see how you've brought beauty from ashes

After all this has passed I still will remain

After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain

Though it wont be today

Someday Ill hope again 

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

          -Beauty from Pain by Superchick 

These words, spoke to me in a huge way. This one specific verse points out several questions that I have asked God in the past week; God Why me? God why this? God why now?... And these verses remind me to trust, and rely on Him and he will walk through the valley with me. He will show me Beauty from the pain. He may not show it to me today, or tomorrow, or a week from today..... but He promises that He will show it. And that, is something to always try to remember when you are walking through that valley, whether it is a physical struggle, mental struggle, or emotional struggle; always remember that He will bring beauty from it. He will bring beauty from ashes, and he will always bring Beauty from my Pain.....